okay so im going out of town for a week with my family . and we are going to our beach house.
for an entire week. i dont know what im going to do. we dont have internet access there.
we have holidays this next week.

i can access the internet with my cell phone but thats it, im just freaking out. im freaking about the food , my weight , im going to have to wear a bathing suit, etc. im so f*****ng fat at the moment.

im so depressed right now . i dont know what to do.

i feel like overdosing on diet pills right now.
i had the urge earlier so bad. and last night too.

i had therapy today but i didnt tell my therapist about that.

im so anxious and stressed out right now.

i promise not to overdose on diet pills, i willl try my best. but i got really triggered today when i watched beverly hills 90210 when Donna overdosed on some pills. got majorly triggered there. i didnt think it would affect me , but im so triggered.

i just want to take a bunch of diet pills right now, i have been wanting to this since last night.

i dont know what to do

please help me

okay so im going on a trip on sunday with my parents , i dont know what i m going to do . we will be eating together and i cant get out of that, i will be sleeping with them in same hotel room too.

then we come back like on thursday and i have a wedding to go to on saturday its in the morning i have 3 dresses already.
2 of the dresses are short up to the knee, its what girls are using here to go to weddings. since the weather its hot and humid all the time.

i took some pictures of myself to see how they look on me . and i still need to lose a whole lot of weight, but at least my weight is dropping, i have lost 5 pounds this week since i have been sick with the flu

i dont know what im going to do on the trip with my parents, my dad is going to some conference and i will be with my mom, i dont want to gain all the weight back that i have lost. its the weekend almost , and i struggle so much during the weekend,

my question is how do i stay on track , and how can i fast or restrict my cals, with out my mom noticing ?????
what about my weight loss pills and appetite suprresants, ?
should i take them on my trip? how do i hide them from my mom? i need tips, need advice
please help

sorry for this long long post!!!

When you have the urge to binge look, in a mirror. Hold your stomach and think about what your stomach would feel like after a binge...would you even be able to get your arms around it???
*Weigh yourself every three days, set a time aside where you can strip down (clothes weigh a fair bit, espically the wire in your bras girls!). T
his gives you something to look foward to (alot of weight can be losst in 3 days!)


*Make a Ana Book! In it record your progress, quotes and pics of thinspiration (from magazines nd stuff) and inspirational things that happened during the day (eg. in mine i put things like when guys make comments about your looks/figure or even things like when your friend (preferably not a good friend) sat down next to you at lunch and her kilt (yep dats right where i live every school has to wear a kilt!) moved and revield her thunder thighs!
*STAY POSITIVE!!!!!! No matter what I always try and stay posotive.


I find the best way to do this is to have an event your looking foward to, like the day when you reach your goal weight (being a dancer) i look foward to things like dance shows/auditions, up untill 3 weeks ago when i quit gym it was gymnastics comps i looked foward to, it varys depending on your interests and hobbies. When your feeling down just think "in three weeks i'll be dancing in thr regent theater" or "Two days till my B-dae", "Next week im going shopping with my friends" etc. This always chears me up!
*DRINK WATER!!!

It keeps you alert, keeps your skin and hair looking healthy, and fills you up. Always keep bottles of water in the fridge, add ice cubes b4 u drink them (ice water speeds up ur metabolism coz ur bodys gotta heat the wter up before it can use it).
*NEVER DO THE FOLLOWING: nibble!
                                                       drink fizzy drinks!
                                                        eat peanuts!
                                                         eat chocolate!
                                                        eat or drink anything fatty or sugary!
*DIET COKE is a life saver! Fills you up for less that 8 calories!



Hiding Ana!
*When people ask/comment that youve lost weight, tell them youve joined a gym and have actually gained weight, in mussle mass! (yea we don't really wanna gain weight!)

*Become a self-described picky eater! When ever people offer you a piece of chocolate, when your round for dinned at other peoples places, etc, pretend your picky, make excuses like "I only like (certain brand) of chocolate" or "I'm a vegetarian" "bread tastes like playdough" (I actually think it does!) or "Cokes to sweet" "I don't like pasta"

*Talk about bad foods every now and then. Say things like "My mum made the best chocolate cake last nignt! It was so good we had some for breakfast this morning" people will think you like food.

*Also if people ask if youve tried the new chocolat thats just come out tell them you have and about how good it was (a few white lies never hurt any one)

*DON'T EVER go on about your weight! And if someone else makes a comment like "god im fat" reply with how there not fat and beauty is on the inside, who cares what size you are, it makes no difference to the type of person you are. (this ones good coz they usually reply with a complement to u like "Your so lucky i wish i was as skinny as you")

*When people ask if ur ana (its bound to happen at some stage) act like you offended and point out how stupid anorexics are (dont worry, we no we're not) and how you wuld neva do anything like that. Remember,act really offended.

*Don't be shy about your weight. If anyone asks tell them (adding a few extra kg/lbs on of corse!)

*During family get togethers, fill up your plate, and go back for seconds!!! (no one said you actually had to eat it, give it to the dog or find a wee hiding spot)

*most importantly NEVER ADMIT TO ANYONE YOUR ANA! They will just try and stop you. In all honesty i think the reason most people are so anti-ana is because there jelious they don't have the self-controll to lead our lifestyle!



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